I realized that most of my unhealthy relationships in life were due to Narcissism.  I accidentally discovered Narcissism and NPD through my search for better understanding when I was confronted with dealing with a horrible friend.  My search first lead me to the terms like ‘Frenemy’, ‘Toxic friendship’.  Eventually I discovered more information about Narcissism and I add my real life dealings with them.

There has been many blogs, websites, books, etc. written about narcissism and NPD (narcissistic personality disorder).  I list the ones that have helped me sort it out for myself and my situation (on the sidebar).  I add my interactions and thoughts on the subject in the posts and I hope that the readings give you comfort while going through this as well.

To me and it is noted in some writings that narcissism is a range.  Everyone has the narcissistic trait and we actually need this trait in certain situations (to stand up for yourselves).  To me this means this is the moment in your life when you need to be selfish for the protection of yourself.  This normal level of narcissism is at one end (the low end).  Then as the narcissism increases in a person you finally end up with NPD at the other end.  So it is possible to be extremely narcissistic and not have NPD.

A great resource for understanding the spectrum of narcissism and personality disorders has been written by CZBZ at The Narcissistic Continuum in her post:

Narcissism Key: From Healthy to Pathological

I wanted to add some information about NPD.  Kathy Krajco (a writer and blogger, RIP) wrote this about NPD on May 28, 2006 in her blog: What Makes Narcissists Tick (link on the Resources page).  I copy the whole post here as it is difficult to get to since it is no longer an active blog.

Facing Facts About NPD

Taken together, my last few posts make an important point:

  1. If people suffering from NPD can keep themselves from abusing when there would be witnesses, they can keep themselves from abusing when there wouldn’t be witnesses. They just don’t.
  2. By going to great lengths to abuse on the sly while portraying themselves to the outside world as the very antithesis of what they are, NPDs prove that they know that their behavior is wrong and shameful = something to hide.
  3. Most children of narcissists do NOT choose to imitate the parent who hurts them so and therefore do NOT become narcissists themselves.

This is why the courts (in the US) don’t regard NPD as a defense. That’s because it isn’t insanity. The insane

  1. attack people in broad daylight, in front of God and everybody, like that tiger I mentioned in this previous post.
  2. are NOT cunning; they don’t do evil on the sly; they don’t cover up their true character with an impressive facade; they don’t plan (premeditate) how to sneak around and get away with wrongdoing on the sly.

The insane show by the way they go about a crime that (a) they don’t know what they’re doing, (b) that they don’t know it’s wrong, something to hide and be ashamed of, and (c) that they can’t control themselves to keep from doing it.

Does any of that fit the NPD modus operandi? No.

This is why NPD is legally a CHARACTER disorder, not a mental disorder that leaves a person free of responsibility for what he or she does.

In other words, NPD is NOT insanity. NPDs are twisted, not insane.

Are they then just evil?

Nobody needs anyone to tell them the answer to that question. Just follow simple logic: Add 2+2 = ?

NPDs don’t do evil to do evil: they do it because it makes them feel good = because doing evil is like a drug, a pain killer.

So, we cannot get on a high horse of moral superiority, because we aren’t tempted as they are. We don’t have their predatory urges.

But that doesn’t mean that we should close our eyes to what they are. If hurting others makes you feel good, you like hurting others. Sorry, there’s just no getting around that.

If you want to hurt others, you’re malevolent. Sorry, there’s just no getting around that.

It’s DANGEROUS to be in denial of these facts. Dangerous to regard NPDs as people of goodwill, as suffering victims who can’t help it.

That just plays right into their hands. That’s what they want — for you to be a sucker and feel sorry for them. To make excuses for them. To assign them a lower set of standards to live up to.

There’s a sucker born every minute. Before you know it, they have you regarding THEM as the victim, feeling sorry for THEM instead of their victims. All hell must be laughing their heads off at this joke. What a travesty of justice. What a perversion of Truth.

It’s a false choice — that suggested choice between hating them and sympathizing with them. The sensible choice is simply to regard them as what they are: predators. In other words, STAY AWAY FROM THEM. NEVER TRUST THEM. AND DON’T GO INTO THEIR CAGE.

If you lie, you are a liar. If you kill, you are a killer. We are the sum total of what our CHOICES to date have made us. Narcissists too are the sum total of what their choices to date have made them. Adult narcissists have passed the point of no return long ago.

Perhaps some day psychiatrists will learn some way to help them pay the toll to that demon at the door, so narcissists can return to the human way of life. Let us hope for that day, but let us not, in the meantime, be dangerously naive.

7 thoughts on “Narcissism

  1. I need help.. After 8 months of marriage I’ve finally found out whats wro g with my husband.. He’s a full blown narcissist. Because of my religios beliefs I cannot leave him. Is there any hope of getting through this with my sanity intact? Where do I get help? I need help. I’m afraid.


    • Hi Deb,
      I am so sorry and that is a rough and very difficult situation you are in. If you need help and are afraid I suggest you get immediate help from a medical professional (any professional you trust, ex: a doctor can direct you to the appropriate resources, a nearby clinic) and if you feel your life is in danger please contact the authorities immediately. You are worth taking care of and please contact someone who you trust to help you.

      I know you can get through this and much support. TR


  2. Exactly this. I am more than tired of books and “professionals” who regard them as people unable to stop themselves. This is blatantly not true. They can stop whenever they fear their reputation is at stake. Not their life, just their lifestyle. “Forgive and forget” cannot be applied to vicious predators, family or no.


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