I have behaved narcissistically to my friends. I am upset and ashamed at myself for how I have treated people. I have been sarcastic to my friends. I have not been empathetic. I am grateful for the ones that have stayed in my life. I have hurt my friend’s feelings. I have used jokes not to be funny but be mean. I am aware. I have not listened when it was needed or asked. I am stopping this. I have asked for too much (more than I have given) from my friends. I have played the victim. I am not a victim. I am, I was, I have…hope. I am she…I hope to find her.